Going Home!!!

" I'm going home. Back to the place where I belong. Where your love has always been enough for me. Yeah, I'm not runnin' from, no, I think you've got me all wrong. I don't regret this life I chose for me. All these places and these faces are getting old. So I'm goin' home."
- Chis Daughtry.


I'M GOING HOME!!!!!
Seriously... I've been super jealous of everyone that's gotten to go home this year during christmas break, spring break, and even on weekends if they feel like it.

This will be the first time in a YEAR that I've been home.

:)

It's gonna be a busy two weeks, but SOOO worth it.

I miss my babies.
Oh and my friends and family too of course.
;)

THINKING! (Career wise)

So this CRAZY idea popped into my head!!!
I was researching video and editing production locations in Ohio, to find that many of them were one person businesses... which made me think about perhaps starting off my career by working on film projects or what have you on my own.
My own business!

That way I could build up a substantial amount of work to show when it comes time for me to work for a larger company! You know, like build up my resume.
Maybe if I start putting myself out there for a small fee (such as making a professional looking picture slide-show and charging a small fee for putting the collection together and burning it on a DVD)
I ALREADY HAVE THE SOFTWARE TO DO THIS!
Well... the DVD studio is still back at my home in Ohio, so I'd have to ask my parents to mail it...

But idk... is this a good idea, or am I nuts?

Breaking the Stereotype: Nerd

Well, this is mostly gonna be random ramblings, but I just feel it needs to be said... I guess.

I think people stereotype too much, and even the way we treat these stereotypes is stereotyped! You follow my drift?

Pretty girls (the 'preps') are lusted after by males, and envied by girls.

Band nerds (a close tie to nerds, but a different branch of nerdom) are teased by everyone and hated by the football team and cheerleaders.

Foot ball players (or most any sports jocks) are lusted after by girls, and the quarter back is always wanted by the head cheerleader.

This is what I mean when I say that the way we treat each stereotype is stereotyped.

It's time for change.

We MUST stop putting a person into a category and forever treating them the way we've always treated that category.

People are much more complext than that.

I consider myself to be a nerd.

I'm more of a gamer to be precise. I'm not going to lie and pretend that I'm some 'ditzy' girl who doesn't like gaming. In fact, I even know what type of gamer I am.

I'm an RPG (role playing game) type of person (though I do like other styles of games as well, but I'm an RPG fan for the most part) That being said, I like RPG's with real time battles rather than the "pokemon" style where encountering an enemy takes you to a new screen and you take turns with the enemy on attacking.

FPS (first person shooter), MMO (massive multiplayer online), and the like are not my style.

There's something so addicting about picking up a controller and starting to play.

For me, it's definitely a stress reliever. I love to kill things.

Not in the Grand Theft Auto kind of way (I don't enjoy killing innocent people/bystanders), I'm more of a 'light conquers dark' person.

The Kingdom Hearts series is a perfect example of my style of game. Light overcomes dark in the series, not to mention this game combines DISNEY (yes, DISNEY!!!!) characters with the game's own original characters and storylines. If you're a die-hard Final Fantasy fan, the Kingdom Hearts franchise includes characters such as Cloud and Leon from FFVII and FFVIII respectively.

I've even gone to the point where some people call me 'obsessive' about the game. I make videos to this game (called GMV's or game music videos), as well as fan-fictions (or fan made stories based on the plot and characters).

Yeah. I went there.

I'm just THAT quote-unquote nerdy.

But really, I basically owe my career choice to this game.

It's because I started editing videos to this game that I finally decided to choose the path of film editor.

I started editing when I was 15, and I'm almost 19 now. And it took until I was 18 to finally decide what I wanted to do.

I originally wanted to get into doing voice overs because I really liked using my voice to act.

Perhaps someday I'll persue that, but for now I can't wait to get my hands on some professional editing software.

So I think I drifted WAY off topic, so I'd like to get back on track.

I am much more than a nerd.

I've tried so hard in the past to hide that side of myself, but really, it's what makes me, well, me.

I also consider myself to be smart. Maybe not so much street smarts, but I feel like a bookworm sometimes. Learning just comes naturally to me. I don't study half as much as I should because of that reason. I'm also a procrastinator, and I'm good with the bare minimum. If an A is still an A whether at 92% or 105%, then I'm perfectly a-okay with that 92%.

I also like to think that at times I'm a bit of a girly-girl. I don't wear makeup, AT ALL. EVER.

Except when I really want to make an impression.

I also like to dress up.

Yeah, I like to look hot sometimes. What girl doesn't?

But most of the time I'd rather just wear sweats and my hair up, because it's not worth the effort everyday to look 'good'.

I think deep inside me somewhere hides this unafraid, extroverted other ego. I used to be loud, bossy, and more of the 'director' type. I even wrote and directed my first play at the tender age of 5. Sometimes I really wish I could go back and high-five myself for that. It was a play about bugs and how the lady bug and butterfly shouldn't judge the bumble bee 'cause he's different and has a stinger.

I don't know if my mom kept that play, but I really wish she did so one day I could go back and look at it.

I hope that side of me emerges someday. I'm tired of myself being so introverted and shy.

Sometimes I say things in my head that I'd rather say outloud, but I have such a fear of rejection that I never bother saying how I feel.

Perhaps someday I'll get over that.

Well anyway... I think there's much more to me than just being a gamer-band nerd.

I'm a p e r s o n.

And you are too.

How many stereotypes do you fit under?